Saturday, February 28, 2009

Flex Space

For the most part it seems a fruitless effort to learn the names of the people I work with. Employees come and go for the most part. The more intelligent individuals usually leave within a few months, having the foresight to know that their job of current employment is a sinkhole with no reward. I have been employed at Burlington Coat Factory for almost two years now and I have realized that there are two types of employees at this retail store. There are those that have only to swipe their card once when clocking out and then there are those that have to swipe multiple times in order to escape from that days shift. The multiple swipers of course are those that have been employed for a long time and have rubbed off the barcodes on the backs of their time cards to the point that the individual lines are barely readable.

Last month I became a double swiper if you will. I reached out to the time clock as usual to punch out when i realized that my swipe didn't register. I tried again. Still nothing happened. I swiped once more and the time clock took pity upon my soul and allowed me to leave. My heart sank. I realized that I had become one of those semi-permanent fixtures of Burlington Coat Factory. I will be forced to swipe my card over and over again to be free of this place. The day will come when my card will become too worn to swipe and I will be trapped with the fate of forlornly swiping my card over and over again for eternity. Even the break room in which I find refuge in for 15 minutes at a time will be closed to me without the permission of the holy time clock.

Picture of said break room



I need a change of pace.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

So This Is The First



As I sit typing this in the basement of our new house Josh is playing guitar.  Lately Josh and Ryan have been practicing almost everyday and they mesh together incredibly well.  I can say that I'm very excited to see this band get off the ground.  I feel that we all have enough focus and direction to understand what we want to do with a project such as this.  In the last band Ryan and I were in we hadn't a clue what we were doing we just wanted to play shows no matter how we sounded our how we felt about the music we were creating.  I can promise this band will not be like that. 

I've also decided that I'm only going to allow myself to spend 60 dollars a week on essential things in order to save money for not only things I want to do in the summer such as Cornerstone and Sound and Fury in Valencia, CA but saving this money will also allow me to insure myself incase of something disasterous happens I can recover relatively unharmed, financially anyway.

On a completely different note, it has recently come to my attention that we must always believe in people.  To believe in their inner strength and help them see how much courage they actually have.  Sometimes I think people don't want to get out of hurtful situations because they have never seen another way.  It breaks my heart to see how the words and actions of selfish individuals can leave someone with the thoughts that there is no escape.  Oh and Larissa if you're reading this and I'm assuming you will here's something I wrote.  I want some feedback please :)


In this life the one eyed lead the blind

But the best sighted amongst us can only see as far as their own face

This world makes us digest words with one syllable till we vomit hate and greed

Our legs are bruised from the weight of our hearts that drops us to our knees

A man once told me with sorrow in his eyes, “ I once had dreams, look where I am a dead end job and half my life spent wasted.”

We hide our fears, we hide our fears behind jokes and knowing smiles

I've learned never to feel contentment

and it's so hard to be trusting

When we were taught as children to pick up ledgers and spades

to cast stones the size of boulders

and sharpen our teeth to points

shoving our own hopes to the side

in the eyes of the world we are here only to live for our father's dreams